Norma- norma

Dalam usia yang masih muda ni, tak adil rsenye bile aku berlaku zalim pd diri sendiri...aku patut lalui semua dengan ikhlas dan penuh redha. Tapi salahkah jika aku masih mencari yang terbaik utk diri aku? Yang faham aku sefahamnya. Tak kira macam mane kompleks pun komposisi emosi aku. Dia perlu memahami. Aku perlu seseorg yg kemanusian nya tinggi. Yang tinggi peri. Kerna, bagi aku.. Sifat itu yang mendorong manusia normal pd paksi kehidupan. Kembali bila telah jauh pergi. Dan aku perlu seseorg yg kasih dan sygnya tidak penah tandus. Mustahil. Itu sifat pencipta. Jika kamu seorg yang tidak menghargai aku. Ku mohon. Kamu pergi.

Kasih dan syg ku pd diri sendiri masih kuat. Tak mungkin aku mengalah kerana kamu. Tak mungkin ku beri kehidupanku pd kamu. Jika itu mmg kamu. Aku rela dibualkan ramai kerana yg menanggungnya aku. Biar org yg aku tak endah kecewakan ku. Jgn kamu yg ku kisah menganiayaku.

Jika, perlu ku undur, ku undur. Jika perlu ku teruskn, kuteruskan. Hanya pd mu Allah ku memohon petunjuk dan bimbingan. Bimbingi ku kearah yg membahagiakan diri, keluarga dan mereka yg membahagiakan ku. Jadikan aku manusia yg adil, jdkan temanku teman yg adil. Agar tiada kata kata berbangit di ungkit kelak.tunjukkanlah. Aku redha.

i hope i'd become more matured to sync my life perfectly with yours. But i cudn't put aside my missing feeling when u're impossible to reach. I really hope tomorrow is friday. Lets end this. Please.

work it out!

it's weird when i'm not blabs about weight lately...last week i had very bad fever and pain all over the body. was unwell and not good in any ways. yet, for what ever my condition is! i still have that friggin taste of delicious meal.omagaaaadddd!! never lost, never fail. jap eh, nk kasi gambo mknn...nyumm...

my sarap moment..omelet, porridge, caramel pudding.

george and dragon- delicious mash potato+sirloin steak

soto wak radoll...sedapnyeee

ohhhyeahh! rojak asma pojaan hati..

seafood @ SS. sodap jugak..

secret time with my friend kalor dan kabor

seafood lagi.ketam sgt yummeh!3 rse pon yummeh 100x

pizza's moment

UTM snack!sushiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~

legendary!!!!meet my cokodok pisanggg <33

and  now is the outcome of great and good food we had for life!

oh pipi!

oh lengan! oh mata sepet sebab oh pipi makin tembam!ahha!

 

ok sekian, aku out.

ILY

today

is 

the day i celebrate my 2nd year of

love and be loved.
 

Morale down and im stuck with work loads.

Good Luck Eju!

5.27am mungkin phone call terakhir aku received dari Eju until jumaat minggu depan. Die n kwn2nya ade practical practice kat hutang simpanan triang, N9 yg mungkin terakhir sebelum die tauliah bulan satu ni..huu..seingt aku, last aku rse sedih disebabkan sayu masa mak aku nk g umrah dulu..macam2 feeling bercampur baur... n now, i can feel the same feeling as before bile Eju call ckap nk bertolak... Ya Allah, lindungi la dia..selamatkanlah die dr segala bahaya dan kejahatan..Amiin...huhu...no msgs, no phone calls, no video calls, even worst no news from him..mcm mane la nk survive seminggu ni..cepat la tauliah Eju, even org ckp after tauliah lagi susah, tp mase tu mungkin u da get used in everything and bukan dlam learning process lagi..Haih...( - -"). RISAUNYEEE.....

i hope that i can live normally for this whole week..kamu org kuat, ezla!!!..arghh!!,Grrrr!!!,Huhhh Huhhh!!!...kuatkan?hhehe..bila la aku nk terbiasa dengan hidup mcm ni...mungkin lagi setahun, due, tiga, sepuluh tahun..atau mungkin aku takkan penah phm dengan kerjaya die. i shud support him, aite?i will support him in whatever for my entire life...even kalo ditakdirkan jodoh tak pjg sekalipon.. U deserved everyone's support dear.. i shud be more positive as you, more optimis, confident and tough as you.

My dear Eju, pls take care.. tolong jaga eju utk saya org2 N9, seluruh isi alam di hutan simpan triang...pls pls pls take care of eju for me. i'll wait for you here ok..slamat pergi n pulang (huwaaaa...sedih!), selamat balik jb after friday ni eh( eheh!cuti raya aji)..jangan makan smbal kacang n bilis tu byk2..pedas sgt..nnt yak-yak kang...hehe..

ishhh...jgn la tgok i camtu...*blushh*

so, now start my waiting period till friday. will miss you badly dear.Sobs..

life treat me

good morning sunshine. since the day i understand how world and how life will treat me, i always put the worst case choices in my front row list. to accept something that slightly/totally out of our desire is hard. to keep in mind that life isn't bout wining and will sometimes turn into bitch is not easy. we have to know the down and heart broken side of it. life for me is about gaining. what u gained for yr creator,yrself, family, friends, and somebody we even didn't know. the outcome of doing something in yr life is a gain regardless it is a lost or a gain. In real, it will always a gain.