now i laugh about all that we've lost.
im broke inside
now i cry more than i able to laugh.

to whom it may concern,

i don't want to explain it now because i just want to let u think what u want to think about me. i experienced it before, when i hardly try to explain what is actually happen and soon it make things worse. i don't blame u if u have lots of bad thoughts about me. i don't care or want to know either. not because i try to run or hide, it is more to what good for me, not always good for u. i actually giving u a justice.

to whom that doing shit things,

i try to be nice to everyone, i know its hard but i always try. if u feels uncomfortable on what i'm doing, just dont make urself alert on me. u can keeep ur eyes wide open but i advice u to shut ur big mouth. i dont aspect u to be nice to me because everybody know, u cant. even if u pretend to be, still i can see it. if u think u are good enough to talk bad about others then please have a pleasure on doing it. but later, if somebody else talking shit about u, dun dare to burst. people say, u get back what u give. this is not a memo of me going berserk. atleast now. it is something that i dont want to happen to me. i am not the one who feels misery on silly things like u do. so dont bother to try lah dey. its a waste.