emotional sponge

when i read through one magazine, im struck with bold letters describing something really related to me. the stress was there. seriously, am i an emotional sponge???

what makes me feel the title?yes,  i tend to dive into others. i love to hear sincere stories, am the one who feel it not just listen to it. to absorb the pain and to cheer up the moment. im a listener.regardless,a good or a bad one.

i should proud of myself in first place,  i create a bonding with them. an imaginary relation. i wanna share, i want to help, im offering my service to please based on the circumstances. but the other sides, was unexpected. somehow it saddened me. burdening me indirectly. thebadof beingagoodlistener. its happen to me who engage with the act of soaking up all the things without knowing whether i need, want or deserve it?

because im over melancholic by nature, so sensitive till i tend to absorb all the energy.it ended hooked me with never ending stories until i participated or connected to it.worst, i overwhelmed by emotions simply because im to empathetic. im full with wish to see them to be happier. take the burden from them and placed it on my own shoulder.my brain automatically respond and interpret the storyline and start working the thing i said before. 

and now, i realized something. something teach me about something. not that im not willing to do, but why should me interfere. i should learn to stop my mind to accept, breath deep and tell myself, "its ok for you to do that, nobody will wrongs you.its find dear" 

ihavetologicallythinkthingsandtellmyselfitsnotabnormalorwierdorfreak. spirit high and spirit up dear ezla!!!