picture talking(1)

this is what i want to include in my blog from now on.
present to you
'the picture talking'

ok, what im going to do is to talk about
anything related to the photos that i posted
anything i remembered at that scene & yes everything!
n pretty sure its pictured how bored i am when creating this post..
HAHA

ok this piece was taken on October 18th
and snap by the person i love most besides my family and gfs
(siap explain..nnt ade yang kecik ati)
hee..
yes, picture lies..and i am totally not that happy..
with that big smile.its fake.
well people, im excellent in pretending good while im not actually..
i guess that is why i still mentally strong for whatever came across my life
(ok.sgt tipu)

back to business,
yana and me were at one of the place that brings us into the state of hell nervousness..
i dont know why..
when i look at others, they're totally calm
but both of us just..
dup dup dup..beating hard baby
dont know if its just me..but i gotta feeling yana feel it too..kan?

and yes,
this place put me into high level of curiosity as well
i want to know, whats inside,
the peoples, the atmosphere and life there.
and from what they told me, its sounds all bad
yup, its freakin true!!!
pity u darl..

and, the moment picture was taken
my mind keep and keep thinking of those things
but to not let anyone morally down
i present my big,huge,sincere but fake smile to whoever snap this pic
thanks,
it ended up very beautiful and brilliant!
i love it.

on that day,
im wearing the same cardi that i wore for the last 5 days..geeheee
yana, wore a top from my blogshop,
somebody wearing jeans shirt..wakakaka
the last day till today, i ever met the person i stated above..
im holding my tears for almost every minutes there.

ok,enough for this pic
till we meet for the next









miss you.

the untold story

OK..selepas berbakul cerita duka n sedih..let me tell u something about what makes today special to me.

a year
a wonderful year
something that i should celebrate with somebody.hee..smile=)
nevermind..i celebrate jgak..tp sensorg dlm bilik mkn mcd n smbil tgok how i met ur mother n of coz a vid cal.sedey.=(
it tough actually, this kind of decision buat org lagi fikir aku terok.
well, aku da tak kesah..
mmg slalu pon org anggap mcm tu kat aku..
im not that emo..i know someday truth reveal..hee

dulu, mungkin till today..kwan2 sekelompok galak becerita sesama sendiri
aku salah, tp mrk tak bg peluang utk sesi penerangan
tp tak perlu pon peluang,sbb kelompok mrk sentiasa betol n aku sentiasa salah
dan skali lagi. aku refuse utk becerita.
ada yang emosional..smpai menangis.bkn salah aku, bkn salah die
tp nmpaknye, kawan becerita mcm sungguh2 salah aku..
apekan daya..terima la saje..

aku happy.ade die.yg juga happy.ade aku.
sometimes sedey lah.
tp we learn something from experiences whether it is sad or happy.
sume cerita ktrg kongsi.supaya pengalaman yang lalu tak repeat lagi.
cukuplah.sakit ati kalo fikir2..

cume ntah la aku nih perasan sendiri ke pe kan
tp ade jek nnt yang amek tawu.. tak tahu la macam mane de amek tawu..
mungkin dr yg bgtau.mungkin la..tak nak jd prejudis kat sini

owh.ini entry happy.harus sy happy..
tp ini serious, sy tak tahu becerita.
tak tahu nk bgtau semuanye. malu la mungkin
but yup that is me..i want to change that.so org akn tahu aku tak berpura2
aku bkn berahsia status, aku bkn sahabat yang tiada peri or bla vla mla nla..
aku tak sanggup nk cerita kat org semua kesah aku..
hidup aku..lelagi pd org yg aku blom tahu ikhlas nye pd aku
dan sape tahu..cerita yang aku ceritakan pdnya akan diceritakan pd org laen
dgn alasan, i dont know how to lie, i failed! my face cant lie!
owh ok..alasan kukuh la sgt
tp takkan rahsia ko, rahsia family ko..
kalo ade org tanye,ko bercerita jgakkan..kenapa boley plak?knp excellent plak bermuka2..wondering~
dan cerita aku jga dicerita kan..
tp chill la aku bkn marah. aku just frust

kisah dulu bkn semua tak indah.
aku hargai semua yang exist in my life dulu.
sbb kamu semua bawa cerita yang belainan.
kamu jdkan aku bualan cerita,kamu kesahkan hidup aku, kamu sebarkan berita bg phak aku.

yg dulu bkn tak happy,
happy..terima kasih sgt2..cume itulah
kepercayaan die bkn pd aku
pd kwn2 nya..pd yang mengambil berat pdnya, pd penyampai2 nya..
jd, ini lah yang tejadi
aku bg masa, yang dulu diam
aku diam, yang dulu pura2 tak tahu plak..
mungkin ego
hmm..sekali lagi.aku tak reti bercerita.dan kau tak phm aku
aku tak tahu nk mulakan.tak tahu nk mengadu dan mendesak..
itu salah aku.dan aku perbetulkan utk yg ini.

dan pd sabahat.sorry buat ko menangis dan sedih
aku tak merancang
aku tak menghebahkan
cerita ini dtg dr diri kau.dan jgn aku plak disalahkan
aku diam utk jaga kau.aku biarkan aku jd bualan.utk jaga kau..
tp ko yang create the story
jd what should i do, i just wait n see n probably tell u the truth,someday
or ko da tawu cerita sebenar???i bet u know everything
geeeheee

i learn so many things.
i accept it all with my open arm(i dunno y i hate this sentence)
i welcome every single thing my friends do to me.
i appreciate u the most, thanks for the understanding and support
may many more blissful years for u and me in the future.
happy our day
happy saturday
happy good day
thanks
regards.

p.s. manusia yang ikhlas,sila doakan kami.

tuhan menduga dugaan yang setimpal dgn kemampuan kita..

ape perasaan mak sekarang ek..
da seminggu lebey raya, tapi still tak jumpe lagi sibs de..
tp kalo tgok dr luaran mak cam ok.sbb mungkin family mak sendiri da besar..

tp camne kalo mak bukak lelaman sosial org len,
then, de tgok pics org len hepi2 dgn keluarga nya..
ape perasaan de sebenarnye ek..
nk tanye takut de lagi sedey.

dulu aku penah ckp ngn mak,
pasal sesuatu,,
dan mak jawab

'tapi mak kesian..mak syg de cam wawa syg kakak,,'

btol jugak,
kalau pon gado ngn kakak,
kalau pon akak buat silap,
still, aku ttp syg kakak,,
aku ttp geram kalo org ckp burok psal akak..
samalah dgn mak...

ya Allah,jauhkan perasaan hasad dengki, burok sangka, kedekut, pemalas, dan keaiban kepada keluargaku..berilah kekuatan dan ketenanganmu pada ibuku..amin amin..

dan knp perlu antenna cancel??
lemah lagi~

setelah pada setiap ari isnin selama sebulan aku telah ponteng dcomm
akhirnye pada hari isnin ini..
aku pergi jua!
itupun
insyaAllah..huhu

i was wondered if all of them can actually think rationally..
and through whatever happen between us patiently.
im sad and angry as well, when my dear beloved mummy was treated like that..
as a daughter and sister, i know how my mom's feel at the moment..
she loves her family and sibs..
but why cant them..love her as what she is..
how could they treat mom that way..owh, i can still remember how mom's face when she talk to aunt..i can remember her voice tone..shaky, frustrated mixed up

dun take her for granted,
if u ask for help..i noe she willing to do so..
im no longer a baby, i understand everything
i noe everything..what happen to your family and i can tell as well
but mom teach me to be nice to everyone..
talk whenever need..not to talk nonsense or someone's bad

she helped you before,
she suffered because of you,
she had a fight with her husband because of you.
cant u appreciate her?
because of that amount, you willing to give up your relation?
you willing to hurt your sis??
i have no word to say.

is this a syndrome?
for someone who successful in life?
are you success enough?
can you tell your self that u are 'somebody' right now?
the words that u said to my mom..i will remember it forever..
your time will arrive..if not now, soon.

eh budak!
jangan asyek berangan je..
jangan asyek nk pikir diri ko,samok ko, hal ko, pemende sume ko ko n ko je..
jangan nk susahkan org..
wat keje ko..
jgn dok tunggu org wat kan..
jgn dok tiru je sambil wat muke kesian..
annoying tawu?


ko mesti tawu..